banyak2 soalan orang penah tanya aku is that why do men see girls yang ada boyfriend nampak cam lagi lawa dari biasa. come again? first time aku dengar general question camnih. of course la aku cakap tak ada comment , tak pernah pulak la terpikir benda2 camnih. sebenarnya aku tak kisah. kalau minah tuh dah ada boyfriend lagi la aku tak nak tengok, much more saying about something like above.
anti social?yeah kind of. aku pon dah lupa yang a few people are around sebab diorang keep a low profile, or aku yang tak kisah or we are all damned ignorant pasal tak kisah about our community. what the hell i am blabbering about early in the morning....so camnih...either you give a damn or don't, take it your way...
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
Monday, December 27, 2004
jack's secret
wassup?wassup?
jack's secret? ah..men never like somebody telling them what to do..or criticize on what they want to do....experience?sort of..a few years ago,aku terkena hype simpan rambut panjang... somebody came along and told me it was too long...those days aku was very impatient and get jumpy easily..so aku dengan tak sengaja raised my voice...and the dia pulak yang tak puas hati ngan aku...agak awkward ......patutnya aku tak puas hati kan..terbalik pulak dah...
so lepas nih jangan marah aku kalau aku nak simpan rambut panjang...takut aku get jumpy pulak kang...
one thing yang aku agak regret is that au tak penah balik malaysia even for once while aku ada kat sini. years went by and a few close relatives are not around anymore. i shed my tears,deep inside . those are the regrets that i had, not being able to see them for even once. aku? aku pon tak tahu bila aku punya turn.....but the rest of my remaining life i try to spend them in being closer to other relatives that are still around.....
jack's secret? ah..men never like somebody telling them what to do..or criticize on what they want to do....experience?sort of..a few years ago,aku terkena hype simpan rambut panjang... somebody came along and told me it was too long...those days aku was very impatient and get jumpy easily..so aku dengan tak sengaja raised my voice...and the dia pulak yang tak puas hati ngan aku...agak awkward ......patutnya aku tak puas hati kan..terbalik pulak dah...
so lepas nih jangan marah aku kalau aku nak simpan rambut panjang...takut aku get jumpy pulak kang...
one thing yang aku agak regret is that au tak penah balik malaysia even for once while aku ada kat sini. years went by and a few close relatives are not around anymore. i shed my tears,deep inside . those are the regrets that i had, not being able to see them for even once. aku? aku pon tak tahu bila aku punya turn.....but the rest of my remaining life i try to spend them in being closer to other relatives that are still around.....
Sunday, December 26, 2004
the past,the present and the road ahead
yo!
Finally 2004 is drawing closer to its end and with it another year of my youth, spent in chasing useless ambitions, frantic assignments completion and the hours spent in excessive gaming and anime watching.
Winter?winter in minnesota is not the one kind one will be able to get used with. just prepare so that the sunshine will not deceive your thinking about the 'nice' sunny weather outside, the coldness will kill your brain cells. studies have proven that minnesota's winter will drive people crazy (don't believe this crap). wan't to see some crazy people?take a look outside the window and if you spot somebody jogging in the freezing weather,you'll know the bounday between being crazy and being sane.
fianlly a recommendation to anime watchers, take a look at Wings of Honneamise. it's an anime, but much better than lot of crap you are watching. good story line, dark humor and it's not crap. for those who has much better things to do, this doesn't apply to your lot.
go out there and freeze your brain, it ain't the end of the world, yet
Finally 2004 is drawing closer to its end and with it another year of my youth, spent in chasing useless ambitions, frantic assignments completion and the hours spent in excessive gaming and anime watching.
Winter?winter in minnesota is not the one kind one will be able to get used with. just prepare so that the sunshine will not deceive your thinking about the 'nice' sunny weather outside, the coldness will kill your brain cells. studies have proven that minnesota's winter will drive people crazy (don't believe this crap). wan't to see some crazy people?take a look outside the window and if you spot somebody jogging in the freezing weather,you'll know the bounday between being crazy and being sane.
fianlly a recommendation to anime watchers, take a look at Wings of Honneamise. it's an anime, but much better than lot of crap you are watching. good story line, dark humor and it's not crap. for those who has much better things to do, this doesn't apply to your lot.
go out there and freeze your brain, it ain't the end of the world, yet
Friday, December 24, 2004
into the heat of cold..
outstation for about a week.as if aku update benda nih regularly.
what's up with the last deleted entry...nothing much just fooling around with your brain.
the past few days haven't been a productive period. lucky enough UT2004 came around and I was able to put all my sniping skills at work. UT2004? oo..that game where you can blow your opponents head of and decapitate them..watch their guts flying in mid air after a strike from a missile launcher. this is what i've been missing since UT2003 came into inception. Or even better, practice a mini nuclear gun and watch everything being obliterated , (that includes myself). beware this is for men only, not for girls, girly type men and those who are faint at heart.
what's up with the last deleted entry...nothing much just fooling around with your brain.
the past few days haven't been a productive period. lucky enough UT2004 came around and I was able to put all my sniping skills at work. UT2004? oo..that game where you can blow your opponents head of and decapitate them..watch their guts flying in mid air after a strike from a missile launcher. this is what i've been missing since UT2003 came into inception. Or even better, practice a mini nuclear gun and watch everything being obliterated , (that includes myself). beware this is for men only, not for girls, girly type men and those who are faint at heart.
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
post exam syndrome
entry kali nih takde kaitan langsung dengan tajuk kat atas. sebenarnya dah lama nak taruk topik nih..tapi kena hati2 mana la tahu orang yang baca blog aku nih terasa pulak kang..
a few blog yang aku read through talked about blog orang lain and their comments..tak kesah la ok ke tak ok..
aku pon ada gak baca2 blog orang lain..so far aku respect apa yang orang lain tulis in their blog...in no way aku nak kata blog diorang nih miserable ke ..full of kutukan ke...every blogger ada diorang punya style of writing and idea diorang..so nak tak nak kita kena la respect their workpiece.
Aku punya purpose? Nothing much..just to bear in mind that when we write something that touches other people's action...actually we are taking a big risk...so depending on what a person write in his blog...don't be surprise if you lose a friend the next day or gain more the next day. aku advocate free speech and aku pacifist..when it comes to blogging aku try to veer away from writing about other people..aku tak nak amik risk in this case.So write what we want..but there is always a risk...
a few blog yang aku read through talked about blog orang lain and their comments..tak kesah la ok ke tak ok..
aku pon ada gak baca2 blog orang lain..so far aku respect apa yang orang lain tulis in their blog...in no way aku nak kata blog diorang nih miserable ke ..full of kutukan ke...every blogger ada diorang punya style of writing and idea diorang..so nak tak nak kita kena la respect their workpiece.
Aku punya purpose? Nothing much..just to bear in mind that when we write something that touches other people's action...actually we are taking a big risk...so depending on what a person write in his blog...don't be surprise if you lose a friend the next day or gain more the next day. aku advocate free speech and aku pacifist..when it comes to blogging aku try to veer away from writing about other people..aku tak nak amik risk in this case.So write what we want..but there is always a risk...
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Session ??: whatchamacallit
The dreaded fibals are creeping...but motivation is one huge factor yang aku takde...after tye last day of class aku mula membuat extreme downloading activity..everything from anime to pc games...kerja? forget about that for a while...InsyaAllah lepas khuruj seminggu akan kembali bertugas di FM. tow major thins: UTK2004 and MS-18E Kampfer...dua benda yang aku dah lama nak sentuh tapi tak sentuh2 lagi...as an extreme gamer and otaku model kit..ini la 2 major plan aku for the break..no travel..no snowboarding ...or maybe i'll go for one..since aku taknah main snowboarding...( i choose gym workout over crazy ass sport macam snowboarding)..
loser? as if i care ..i am fine with that...
Apa rahsia nak jadi kaya....emm..let me tell you...there is nobody rich on this planet..why...simply because we are just the caretaker...when we die ...no single cents will go with us in the grave....what we left will be passed to our succesor. abis tu apsal ko kerja weekend...emm..just to kill time...apsal kerja byk hours..alhamdulillah sup aku baik...sapa yang kenal aku knows my story..i won't tell my story here....discussion pasal duit banyak..kereta lawa..rumah besar..sebenarnya tak elok...opinion aku..insyaAllah bila kau kerja nanti..kalo bole nbak hidup sederhana je..bole tanggung keluarga aku...and at the same time bole tolong orang lain..InsyaAllah
loser? as if i care ..i am fine with that...
Apa rahsia nak jadi kaya....emm..let me tell you...there is nobody rich on this planet..why...simply because we are just the caretaker...when we die ...no single cents will go with us in the grave....what we left will be passed to our succesor. abis tu apsal ko kerja weekend...emm..just to kill time...apsal kerja byk hours..alhamdulillah sup aku baik...sapa yang kenal aku knows my story..i won't tell my story here....discussion pasal duit banyak..kereta lawa..rumah besar..sebenarnya tak elok...opinion aku..insyaAllah bila kau kerja nanti..kalo bole nbak hidup sederhana je..bole tanggung keluarga aku...and at the same time bole tolong orang lain..InsyaAllah
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Session XX?
rupa2nya aku tak bole stop lagi from writing soemthing for this blog.
Desigm Show was a success, and CAE was terrific, if you what it feels to sleep for one hour a night. This is actually the thrill yang aku cari masa tengah belajar...getting into a heated discussion with your peers on engineering stuff , though most of the time kitorang had no slightest idea what kind of crap we talked about. So sebenarnya engineering is fun when we het to spout of cool engineering terms to the lot who are void of of engineering knowledge.
Strykowski, he is a killer. Aku was in charge of FEA for aku punya team, and kena fire on the spot ngan Strykowski pasal method aku guna untuk set up problem in FLUENT, software yang aku pakai untuk CFD. SHIAT, dah la ramai orang kat booth team aku masa tuh.
Aku plan on applying for grad school after this semester. InsyaAllah ada rezeki sambung belajar. Until then, i can't still let my undergrad years went down the drain.
Desigm Show was a success, and CAE was terrific, if you what it feels to sleep for one hour a night. This is actually the thrill yang aku cari masa tengah belajar...getting into a heated discussion with your peers on engineering stuff , though most of the time kitorang had no slightest idea what kind of crap we talked about. So sebenarnya engineering is fun when we het to spout of cool engineering terms to the lot who are void of of engineering knowledge.
Strykowski, he is a killer. Aku was in charge of FEA for aku punya team, and kena fire on the spot ngan Strykowski pasal method aku guna untuk set up problem in FLUENT, software yang aku pakai untuk CFD. SHIAT, dah la ramai orang kat booth team aku masa tuh.
Aku plan on applying for grad school after this semester. InsyaAllah ada rezeki sambung belajar. Until then, i can't still let my undergrad years went down the drain.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004
Session 14: Mish Mash Blues
This blog has no reason to be alive nor do I want it to be around anymore. saves me another portion of my youth,though much of it has went to a waste. There is a reason for doing a thing and sometimes one doesn't even need any reason to justify his action. It's been fun writing all my miseries, rant, fortunes and misfortunes alike.
Nothing beats the fun giving any reader(if there is any) a taste of my life, however miserable or good it is. The greatest gift a writer can give to his audience is not to write what is expected by them.
My thought is my personal right and my actions are the manifestation of my thought.
I am already losing grip of reality and everything around me. gradually, i feel something inside of me going numb. For whatever reason, I don't feel sad when bad things happen to me nor do i feel good when the opposite happens to me.I look for equality when surrounded by people , just so that I am not entangled by preferences. Those that I know, I don't know who they really are. Superficiality covers and masks the true identity of one, whether he or she admits it.
It's been a short experience since the old SKYFURNACE bailed out. I am not losing heart nor do I want to surrender to the demon that keeps my writing at bay. There are times when one should back down and lay low, being a quiet observant, weary of his surrounding. those are the things that i will write or etch in my brain, in place of the dead SKYFURNACE. Expecting an end to something is foolish, for a life can be brought to an abrupt end, that is how everything revolves at, the way I see things are. Life, in essence, is nothing but a dream.
we all sleep while we wake up and wake up while we sleep.is the past reality? are memories the truth?
where are dreams.dreams?
the dreams we dream while asleep, the dreams we dream while awake? they are both the same. the people that say they don't dream only don't remember. the people with no dreams have only yet to notice them. they are cowards.they want to see them, but they're merely forcing themselves not to.
and this is just an illusion. controlled by an unseen hand, the truth is still covered by a thick veil. but it quietly , like the moons of Titans,secretly exists.eventually showing itself after the sandstorm clears.
so.... let's stop getting angry over such simple pleasures. this is not a joke. nor it is a fiction. or ....have i been seeing a bad dream?...
InsyaAllah
Nothing beats the fun giving any reader(if there is any) a taste of my life, however miserable or good it is. The greatest gift a writer can give to his audience is not to write what is expected by them.
My thought is my personal right and my actions are the manifestation of my thought.
I am already losing grip of reality and everything around me. gradually, i feel something inside of me going numb. For whatever reason, I don't feel sad when bad things happen to me nor do i feel good when the opposite happens to me.I look for equality when surrounded by people , just so that I am not entangled by preferences. Those that I know, I don't know who they really are. Superficiality covers and masks the true identity of one, whether he or she admits it.
It's been a short experience since the old SKYFURNACE bailed out. I am not losing heart nor do I want to surrender to the demon that keeps my writing at bay. There are times when one should back down and lay low, being a quiet observant, weary of his surrounding. those are the things that i will write or etch in my brain, in place of the dead SKYFURNACE. Expecting an end to something is foolish, for a life can be brought to an abrupt end, that is how everything revolves at, the way I see things are. Life, in essence, is nothing but a dream.
we all sleep while we wake up and wake up while we sleep.is the past reality? are memories the truth?
where are dreams.dreams?
the dreams we dream while asleep, the dreams we dream while awake? they are both the same. the people that say they don't dream only don't remember. the people with no dreams have only yet to notice them. they are cowards.they want to see them, but they're merely forcing themselves not to.
and this is just an illusion. controlled by an unseen hand, the truth is still covered by a thick veil. but it quietly , like the moons of Titans,secretly exists.eventually showing itself after the sandstorm clears.
so.... let's stop getting angry over such simple pleasures. this is not a joke. nor it is a fiction. or ....have i been seeing a bad dream?...
InsyaAllah
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Session13
Kabare..
the whole semester flew by ,3 weeks or so to the finishing line.
balik dari Iowa, as expected bumi minnesota dah agak putih, and more is coming.
Kalau tengok salji yang putih, let's ponder and reflect ..kalau2 hati kita sama putih dengan salji.
One of penyakit hati,especially untuk orang2 macam aku ialah we easily judge people by their actions. kalo orang tak cakap..aku pon tak tahu..this is a kronik disease.
we, with our limited capacity, has no ability nor any right to judge people. Yes, people make mistake dan kita sebenarnya buat zalim ngan our brothers or sisters kalo kita kata he or she is not a good muslim. kita tak tahu probobly he or she has done a better deed than us. So the best way to treat our brothers and sisters is that kita ada bersangka baik ngan diorang and we believe that they are better than us.
the whole semester flew by ,3 weeks or so to the finishing line.
balik dari Iowa, as expected bumi minnesota dah agak putih, and more is coming.
Kalau tengok salji yang putih, let's ponder and reflect ..kalau2 hati kita sama putih dengan salji.
One of penyakit hati,especially untuk orang2 macam aku ialah we easily judge people by their actions. kalo orang tak cakap..aku pon tak tahu..this is a kronik disease.
we, with our limited capacity, has no ability nor any right to judge people. Yes, people make mistake dan kita sebenarnya buat zalim ngan our brothers or sisters kalo kita kata he or she is not a good muslim. kita tak tahu probobly he or she has done a better deed than us. So the best way to treat our brothers and sisters is that kita ada bersangka baik ngan diorang and we believe that they are better than us.
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
Session 12
esok thanksgiving, a much needed break..I was cracking my brain trying to figure out Senior Design..and semalam all hell broke loose...nasib baik aku takde kat group meeting..sapa2 yg bertuah dapat baca entry yang telah dideletekan got to see the other side of Abdullah Ali...
eh aku pon tak sure bila thanksgiving..takpa2..janji cuti...aku tak bole la plak nak wish thanksgiving kat orang...it just doesn't cut it
i would like to say while life has come to a stump for a while....apasal..that's what i got for cracking emm...figuring all of those tiny weeny, nagging problems all in my brain....at the same time...so macam ko fikir satu masalah ...and the other problem overlapped on it and overlapped and it goes on...roots dia..tah....aku pon tak sure kat mana...
Aku nak share one advice..exercise yourself...g gym ke...g jogging ke...benefit dia..kena buat baru tahu..ada orang kata..bole jatuhkan berat badan...ada orang kata tambah stamina and cardiovascular rate...ada kata bole tambah body mass..all of those make sense...or I just need to beat some sense into orang yang tak penah exercise...
eh aku pon tak sure bila thanksgiving..takpa2..janji cuti...aku tak bole la plak nak wish thanksgiving kat orang...it just doesn't cut it
i would like to say while life has come to a stump for a while....apasal..that's what i got for cracking emm...figuring all of those tiny weeny, nagging problems all in my brain....at the same time...so macam ko fikir satu masalah ...and the other problem overlapped on it and overlapped and it goes on...roots dia..tah....aku pon tak sure kat mana...
Aku nak share one advice..exercise yourself...g gym ke...g jogging ke...benefit dia..kena buat baru tahu..ada orang kata..bole jatuhkan berat badan...ada orang kata tambah stamina and cardiovascular rate...ada kata bole tambah body mass..all of those make sense...or I just need to beat some sense into orang yang tak penah exercise...
Monday, November 22, 2004
Session 10:
umm..let's see the story goes like this..
One day, I was surfing the Internet aimlessly when a godd idea struck my thinking cap...dude..why don't get yourself a really nice thing, something that you can appreciate probably not forever..but until the day you die
that's a good call...let see ...gaji baru masuk...and i had my savings from my freshman...not bad...let's surf the internet and google everything we can think of...i said to my self...
and off i went from watches, cameras, pants,fleece , gifts, and finally i found a nice backpack..hmmm..i can use this to travel around the world....deuter was the brand name..it's a good time to replace me good ol' buddy that went mising ...who in their right mind would want to take my good buddy...damnation..i miss that backpack..
it's like my best friend..
well anyway...I took along time figuring out that if i should go ahead and purchase the backpack....everyday i look at it and even put the website in my favorite folder...finally one day i decide to go on with the purchase...i punched in my credit card number and waited and waited but the bag never arrived...
rushing to the internet to check my order...my jaw dropped in shock and horror..shit..the shipment address is wrong ...and hell ..the website went defunct a week after the purchase...
man.. i really wanted that backpack...oh hell...I still have the northface backpack..it would do just great...
One day, I was surfing the Internet aimlessly when a godd idea struck my thinking cap...dude..why don't get yourself a really nice thing, something that you can appreciate probably not forever..but until the day you die
that's a good call...let see ...gaji baru masuk...and i had my savings from my freshman...not bad...let's surf the internet and google everything we can think of...i said to my self...
and off i went from watches, cameras, pants,fleece , gifts, and finally i found a nice backpack..hmmm..i can use this to travel around the world....deuter was the brand name..it's a good time to replace me good ol' buddy that went mising ...who in their right mind would want to take my good buddy...damnation..i miss that backpack..
it's like my best friend..
well anyway...I took along time figuring out that if i should go ahead and purchase the backpack....everyday i look at it and even put the website in my favorite folder...finally one day i decide to go on with the purchase...i punched in my credit card number and waited and waited but the bag never arrived...
rushing to the internet to check my order...my jaw dropped in shock and horror..shit..the shipment address is wrong ...and hell ..the website went defunct a week after the purchase...
man.. i really wanted that backpack...oh hell...I still have the northface backpack..it would do just great...
Session 9
If you can't let it go, then it's not worth having.....sounds ambigous ..but i really have to give credit to somebody that came with this phrase..perplexing...
aku dah reach conclusion that aku dah sampai satu point yang aku tak ada perasaan kat orang..marah tak..suka tak..benci tak...it's like aku dah throw away all those stuff...without even realizing it. So kalo korang buat cibai ngan aku...jangan terkejut kalau aku tak marah or tak respond apa2...it's useless to have those right..
aku dah reach conclusion that aku dah sampai satu point yang aku tak ada perasaan kat orang..marah tak..suka tak..benci tak...it's like aku dah throw away all those stuff...without even realizing it. So kalo korang buat cibai ngan aku...jangan terkejut kalau aku tak marah or tak respond apa2...it's useless to have those right..
Saturday, November 20, 2004
Session 8
it's been a while...
i've got into some interesting conversation dengan teammamtes from Senior Design project. They are amazed of my volition to came half the world to this yankee's land and both of em' never set foot on other countries. So diorang tanya weekend aku buat apa...usual stuff.. kerja homework and other stuff.
And then another unexpected question popped out ...How about the ladies, Abdullah?How about the ladies in your life? so aku pon jawab..none...pretty good answer eh...
aku pon tak ingat lagi apa aku cakap kat diorang...
emm..aku nak cakap skit pasal modesty in dressing...men should observed more modesty in their clothing....lelaki yang pakai body hugging dress is an EYESORE... aku tak nak cakap pasal the opposite sex...so lelaki pon nak kena pakai baju that doesn't make the body shape too obvious and cover our butt..it sounds kinky..but trust me brothers ..better cover it ...cam kalo kita treasure something we keep it really tightly sealed and watch over it right...so the same thing we don for our God - given body...it's that simple...
i've got into some interesting conversation dengan teammamtes from Senior Design project. They are amazed of my volition to came half the world to this yankee's land and both of em' never set foot on other countries. So diorang tanya weekend aku buat apa...usual stuff.. kerja homework and other stuff.
And then another unexpected question popped out ...How about the ladies, Abdullah?How about the ladies in your life? so aku pon jawab..none...pretty good answer eh...
aku pon tak ingat lagi apa aku cakap kat diorang...
emm..aku nak cakap skit pasal modesty in dressing...men should observed more modesty in their clothing....lelaki yang pakai body hugging dress is an EYESORE... aku tak nak cakap pasal the opposite sex...so lelaki pon nak kena pakai baju that doesn't make the body shape too obvious and cover our butt..it sounds kinky..but trust me brothers ..better cover it ...cam kalo kita treasure something we keep it really tightly sealed and watch over it right...so the same thing we don for our God - given body...it's that simple...
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Session 7: Eid Mubarak
how's your day?
Sempena eid mubarak yang mluia nih ,aku nak cakap pasal solat eid...the biggest day after the month of Ramadan.
katakanlah ko ajak member ko pegi solat eid and dia cakap malas..camnih "Ah, maleh ah"....camne ko rasa....ko rasa tak kesah..ke..or ko rasa bagi penempeleng kat member ko tuh..enmm..senario nih apply utk orang lelaki je...and dia jawab lagi..."ada match bola ah kol 6am Team A vs Team B,".....ini memang answer yang will boil my blood and bukan je aku rasa nak tempeleng, aku rasa nak tambah dengan penyepak..double treat....
ko dah puasa sebulan pegi la semayang raya...bukan je lama pon...so ko rasa tgk bola far more important dari g semayang raya..what an idiot...what an idiot...what an idiot...orang macam nih patut pegi mati je....menyusahkan badan je posa...rugi je posa sebulan...
bila mana kita rasa bahawa tengok bola far more fulfilling we'd better do a check on ourselves....either we have a screw loose in the head...or kita sebenarnya tak fully observe the order of Allah and the sunnah of His prophet s.a.w...
cuba ko balik masa zaman nabi pastuh ko cakap kat mana2 sahabat ko malas nak pegi semayang raya......aku tak bole nak kata apa yang diorang akan buat...so think yourself.....
tu je la aku nak pasal eid mubarak...selamat hari raya...sapa2 yang terasa apa yang aku tulis...aku nak mintak mahap..tapi aku really meant it...do a check on ourselves
Sempena eid mubarak yang mluia nih ,aku nak cakap pasal solat eid...the biggest day after the month of Ramadan.
katakanlah ko ajak member ko pegi solat eid and dia cakap malas..camnih "Ah, maleh ah"....camne ko rasa....ko rasa tak kesah..ke..or ko rasa bagi penempeleng kat member ko tuh..enmm..senario nih apply utk orang lelaki je...and dia jawab lagi..."ada match bola ah kol 6am Team A vs Team B,".....ini memang answer yang will boil my blood and bukan je aku rasa nak tempeleng, aku rasa nak tambah dengan penyepak..double treat....
ko dah puasa sebulan pegi la semayang raya...bukan je lama pon...so ko rasa tgk bola far more important dari g semayang raya..what an idiot...what an idiot...what an idiot...orang macam nih patut pegi mati je....menyusahkan badan je posa...rugi je posa sebulan...
bila mana kita rasa bahawa tengok bola far more fulfilling we'd better do a check on ourselves....either we have a screw loose in the head...or kita sebenarnya tak fully observe the order of Allah and the sunnah of His prophet s.a.w...
cuba ko balik masa zaman nabi pastuh ko cakap kat mana2 sahabat ko malas nak pegi semayang raya......aku tak bole nak kata apa yang diorang akan buat...so think yourself.....
tu je la aku nak pasal eid mubarak...selamat hari raya...sapa2 yang terasa apa yang aku tulis...aku nak mintak mahap..tapi aku really meant it...do a check on ourselves
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
session 6
the time lost is the time lost forever...and so it seems
man , how i wish i could go back to the times bila every petang turun main bola and kena hambat ramai2 dengan warden. bila tak puas hati ngan contractor dewan makan g pecah masuk dewan makan. all your friends are your comrades in arms, and your brothers. bila rasa mengantuk dalam kelas bole tido, tak kesah sapa yang tengah mengajar.
aku dah masuk senior year...and all those years i never give a shit to have a real conversation except with those i came in contact everyday. and i am sure ada yang don't give a shit if aku or anyone else are around. aku try nak be more friendly with trivial questions but silence was the reply....aku pon terasa fucking annoyed...
hehehe..aku hold grudges against no one..so let that be..
dulu aku ada account friendster..nak ramaikan kawan and stuff ...satu hari aku terasa
lak menatang frienster nih macam mengarut ..terus aku delete account...let me tell you why....i've got no time to check who's giving comment and what not...that doesn't matter ... at the end of the day i trashed my friendster account....
aku pon terasa bersalah pasal tak baik dengan budak JPA yang lain...probably aku yang salah....dalam kelas pon tak nak bertegur.....kakaka...dua2 ego melampau...
aku took a stance to lay low and do what i need to do....so sapa2 yang terasa aku tk penah lak borak2 ngan diorang ...sori ah..aku tak resent anyone...aku nih jenis yang susah nak tegur orang..and orang tanya sepatah aku jawab sepatah.....further answer outside the realms of the question is a waste..
man , how i wish i could go back to the times bila every petang turun main bola and kena hambat ramai2 dengan warden. bila tak puas hati ngan contractor dewan makan g pecah masuk dewan makan. all your friends are your comrades in arms, and your brothers. bila rasa mengantuk dalam kelas bole tido, tak kesah sapa yang tengah mengajar.
aku dah masuk senior year...and all those years i never give a shit to have a real conversation except with those i came in contact everyday. and i am sure ada yang don't give a shit if aku or anyone else are around. aku try nak be more friendly with trivial questions but silence was the reply....aku pon terasa fucking annoyed...
hehehe..aku hold grudges against no one..so let that be..
dulu aku ada account friendster..nak ramaikan kawan and stuff ...satu hari aku terasa
lak menatang frienster nih macam mengarut ..terus aku delete account...let me tell you why....i've got no time to check who's giving comment and what not...that doesn't matter ... at the end of the day i trashed my friendster account....
aku pon terasa bersalah pasal tak baik dengan budak JPA yang lain...probably aku yang salah....dalam kelas pon tak nak bertegur.....kakaka...dua2 ego melampau...
aku took a stance to lay low and do what i need to do....so sapa2 yang terasa aku tk penah lak borak2 ngan diorang ...sori ah..aku tak resent anyone...aku nih jenis yang susah nak tegur orang..and orang tanya sepatah aku jawab sepatah.....further answer outside the realms of the question is a waste..
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Monday, November 01, 2004
Session 4
The world is not a reality, it's full of sugar coated dreams and false faces...
The only reality is the next world.
so arininh aku sampaikan satu cerita yang aku dengar dari orang alim..ceritanya lebih kurang macam ini...
pada satu hari, ada seorang nabi nih jalan2 dan dia terserempak dengan seorang wanita tua sedang bersedh , di depan sebuah kubur. nabi tu pon atnya wanita tua tuh mengapa dia bersedih dan siapa tuan punya kubur itu. wanita tua pon jawab, kubur itu adalah kubur anak saya. Nabi tu pon tanya lagi...berapa umur anak kamu bila dia meninggal dunia...perempuan tua tu pon jawab..300 tahun...
Nabi tu pon bagi tahu perempuan tua tu supaya jangan bersedih dan bagitahu perempuan tua tu perihal akan datang satu kaum yang average umur mereka 60-70 tahun. Perempuan tua tu pon terkejut ,sebab pada masa tu lifespan orang beribu2 tahun. perempuan tua tu berfikir..apa yang bole kaum nih buat in such a short lifespan, kalau aku jadi mereka..aku akan habiskan seluruh hidup aku beribadat saja...
so camtuh la lebih kurang ceritanya....
so aku pon nak reflect tentang kejahilan diri aku sendiri....what say u?
The only reality is the next world.
so arininh aku sampaikan satu cerita yang aku dengar dari orang alim..ceritanya lebih kurang macam ini...
pada satu hari, ada seorang nabi nih jalan2 dan dia terserempak dengan seorang wanita tua sedang bersedh , di depan sebuah kubur. nabi tu pon atnya wanita tua tuh mengapa dia bersedih dan siapa tuan punya kubur itu. wanita tua pon jawab, kubur itu adalah kubur anak saya. Nabi tu pon tanya lagi...berapa umur anak kamu bila dia meninggal dunia...perempuan tua tu pon jawab..300 tahun...
Nabi tu pon bagi tahu perempuan tua tu supaya jangan bersedih dan bagitahu perempuan tua tu perihal akan datang satu kaum yang average umur mereka 60-70 tahun. Perempuan tua tu pon terkejut ,sebab pada masa tu lifespan orang beribu2 tahun. perempuan tua tu berfikir..apa yang bole kaum nih buat in such a short lifespan, kalau aku jadi mereka..aku akan habiskan seluruh hidup aku beribadat saja...
so camtuh la lebih kurang ceritanya....
so aku pon nak reflect tentang kejahilan diri aku sendiri....what say u?
Session 3
I don't feel anything against anyone......and Bull said, "that is the greatest misfortune on the face of the earth"......
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
Session 2
howdy people out there...how's your day...did everything went well?
did you eat your breakfast?or didn't you?
here in the land of many many many lakes..the temperature has dropped to near freezing....whcih is "cool". as soon as it begins snowing..i'll be staring at them..
knowing that this is my last winter in minnesota...
so what's up with this all sentimentality popping up out of nowhere.....let's just say there is a time when one has to look back and see how the time flew by....all the losses, all the gains, and everything that had happened, and etch it in whatever space we gave for that special spot.
The last Ramadhan and Eid..alhamdulillah ..so far i've never missed the big muslim gathering in downtown. i'd rather miss my class than missed my eid solat. so what? i've got days of classes left to go..missing i a few won't do much harm....
and ramadhan in winter..is a test of endurance ..a test of patience ..a test of faith...and the tests continues even after ramadhan...how we fare in Ramadha..greatly affects our doings in the coming months after Ra,adhan
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Session 1
at this point of time aku still tak tahu nak rasa happy or sad over the fact that i will leave this place in about another 10 months...10 months my friends is awfully,relatively a short period of time. maybe it's too early to tell, everything will unfold when i'm going to set my feet off this snowy country.
so until that time when we who came in 2001 wil be saying goodbye to the gophers ,squirrels and what not, let's just enjoy the short 10 months or whatever time that we are left with together...
so until that time when we who came in 2001 wil be saying goodbye to the gophers ,squirrels and what not, let's just enjoy the short 10 months or whatever time that we are left with together...
Friday, October 15, 2004
the sea of tranquility
dead sea
he's having a writer's block...in loss for what to write and ideation for his next entry in his miserable blog...or whatever it is. This is funny, so much thing happened and so events that happened, yet he put no interest in doing his extraordinary and perceptive analysis of those things..(yeah, as if i can do that)
this friend of mine is sick( he's referring to his old buddy, the pc that he bought during his freshman year and had continued to faithfully serve him). probably it's about time he jumped into the "getting mobile" frenzy and "bluetooth" hype.
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
is this a reality or have i been seeing a bad dream
the rising blaze on the eastern sky
we all sleep while wewake up and wake up while we sleep.is the past reality?are memories the truth?
where are dreams.dreams?
the dreams we dream while asleep, the dreams we dream while awake?they are both the same. the people that say they don't dream only don't remember. the people with no dreams have only yet to notice them. they are cowards.they wan to see them, but they're merely forcing themselves not to.
and this is just an illusion. controlled by an unseen hand, the truth is still covered by a thick veil. but it quietly , like the moons of Titans,secretly exists.eventually showing itself after the sandstorm clears.
so.... let's stop getting angry over such simple pleasures. this is not a joke. nor it is a fiction. or ....have i been seeing a bad dream?...
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